As the Christmas season has approached and as I got closer and closer to my due date I decided to read the 4 gospels, specifically the book of Luke. I thought it would better put me in the Christmas spirit. In conjunction with reading in the New Testament I have also read this Ensign article, which puts much of my feelings into perspective. I am grateful to learn from her example to prepare me to be a better mother. What a faithful woman and mother to so willingly accept her divine role.
As the angel Gabriel appeared to Mary he told her of her divine mission to bare the Son of God. I’m sure a million questions raced through he mind in that meeting. She does say “how shall this be?“. Can you imagine the anguish it caused her to know that betrothed to Joseph, this would be socially unacceptable? Can you imagine how this would change her entire life? Can you imagine the amount of faith her in Heavenly Father she had to willingly say “Behold the handmaid of the Lord, be it unto me according to thy word”. She must have had faith in the promise Gabriel made, that with God nothing is impossible.
As I carried our baby boy I wondered how Mary must have felt to know she was carrying the Son of God. Along with great joy I felt inadequate, unprepared, nervous, and a whole mix of emotions. She was carrying the Son of God, sent to redeem all man kind. The Savior, the Jehovah, would look to her example, her knowledge of all things, and look to be taught by her. Talk about a flood of pressure! We can all learn from Mary’s example of faithful obedience to willingly obey all that our Heavenly Father has commanded us to do. For some of us that means taking on the responsibility of parenthood, for others it means forgiving someone or ourselves, for others it means making a big move, or saying yes to a big decision. We can all learn to be faithful in any circumstance and to say “Behold the handmaid of the Lord, be it unto me”.
I love the scriptural accounts in Luke 2 of Mary pondering on the birth and mission of her son.
I am sure that she relied on the Holy Ghost, as we all should, in learning how to raise her son. I feel a connection to her in a way I have never felt before as I have pondered the birth of my son in my heart. I’m sure she reflected on the miracles and the hand of the Lord that had brought her to that point.
I know sitting in the hospital holding my son for the first time can not be expressed in words what I felt in my heart. I felt like my heart would burst with the love I felt for this boy and for the blessings I felt from my Father in Heaven. Since those early minutes I have held him many times and pondered what he will be like, the interests he will have, the reason he was able to come to our home, and who God intends him to become. I feel an awesome responsibility to help him learn for himself what he is capable of. We too should take the opportunity to reflect on the blessings the Lord has given us and the person God desires us to become.
I hope we each can take a moment this Christmas season and recommit ourselves to the Savior. Find yourself in the Nativity story this year. Commit to ponder the blessings you have been given and who he desires you to become and commit to be obedient in all things.